Shellymos - I definitely understand your feeling sad about your son not starting K. I had a similar feeling about the school that my son currently attends. It is a very respectable school, and DH and I knew that if we ever had kids we would want to send them there. I totally enjoy the school itself and love volunteering to help out, etc. But it's not about me, it's what's best for DS. When the realization hit (pretty quickly!) that this school was just not going to work for him, it made me sad, probably because of the expectations I had in my mind for the longest time. But again, it's not about me. And who knows if the next school will work? I think it's just going to be a constant state of adjustments for the next 10 years or so. What a ride!