Raoul,

This is a really small point with all that you are dealing with. And I could be wrong. I am no neuroscientist. As I understand it, the physical or genetic trait most strongly associated with intelligence is the quality of insulation (myelin) on the connections between brain cells. It's almost as if the functioning of your computer can best be explained by the quality of the insulation on your ethernet cable.

For some reason, I find this idea oddly comforting. It helps me get over the difference between myself and people with lower IQs. Some of them may still get freaked out by me reading upside down or speaking Chinese, so I try not to do things like that in front of them.

One day, when you can sit down and listen to something in English for twenty minutes or so, you should sit down and listen to the Black Hole Son portion of this program:

http://www.thisamericanlife.org/radio-archives/episode/207/special-ed

Or you can read the transcript for the whole program, which is found here:

http://www.thisamericanlife.org/radio-archives/episode/207/transcript