Thank you for your understanding.
My whole life has been a quest to understand why I have difficulty fitting in. It has been a life filled with pain and self doubt. I am sure there are areas in which I can improve and I'm sure many of you have constructive suggestions and I'm sure most of you posses the ability to frame these suggestions positively. After all, positive comments encourage change and negative ones discourage it.
When I was young, part of the abuse I was forced to endure took the form of me sitting in a chair crying while my father, a large and strong man stood over me with clenched fists screaming for what was sometimes hours at the top of his lungs about everything that was wrong with me. Often these tirades would begin with calm inquisitions in which my character along with every other aspect of my being was put on trial. Of course like all inquisitions my guilt was pre-determined and it was only after every aspect of my being was destroyed, every ounce of self esteem crushed and a confession of my worthlessness rendered did the inquisition end.
So, please forgive me if I am not always completely receptive to people pointing out my faults.
