What is "DH"?
I now own a small business and I'm doing fairly well which is more than a lot of people can say these days. In fact, my income is comfortable.
I didn't mention that I dropped out of high school and wound up going back to college in my 20s where I majored in biology. I did fairly well but again, family issues cut me off at the knees. Getting into medical school is a lot harder when you get nothing but stress from your family and no help on top of a learning disability.
Although I often lament what I could have become had I had reasonably competent parents, I am thankful for what I have.
The worst part of it all is this lurking beast that keeps interfering with all of my personal relationships and my efforts to fit in. It is as if no matter how hard I try or what I do, people somehow notice that I am different and shut me out. It's as if no matter how well I conceal things, something always gives me away and I can never figure out what it is.
I do have a couple of good friends that are highly intelligent but in general I lack the social competence that women find so desirable in a man so I am still single. Oh, I know how to talk to women and know how to attract them, but eventually my low social standing always winds up pulling the rug out from under me. Out of all the women I have been with, I have had two and a half semi long term relationships. Nearly all the rest were one nighters. The two ended due to my being different.
I presume should I become fully wealthy, it would lend credence to my views as this would validate my intelligence in a way that society values and recognizes. When a poor man speaks intelligently, he is an annoying "know it all." When a rich man does the same he is a guy people ought to listen to.
Which brings me to another thing that sucks. Seeing people's true nature and living in a constant state of disappointment as a result. To understand social exchange theory and social dynamics is to be disappointed by humanity in the most profound way.
I guess I'd just rather believe that my dog loves me because he loves me and not because he is driven by instinct to be socially aligned with his food provider.
People and dogs are remarkably similar.
