When DD was born she would not latch at all. I never was able to breastfeed successfully, not even for a minute. She was not gaining weight, had horrible reflux, unexplained fevers, and undiagnosed seizures. Then, the first night home from the hospital a natural disaster of sorts turned our world upside-down.
It was awful. But, looking back on it, there was a silver lining. I quickly learned that it wasn't going to be perfect. DD's short life was already kind of screwed up, and that was quite freeing. I just did my best. But, there was no ideal.
I would not change a thing. In the end I know I was an outstanding mother that first year.
Practical advice: Learn how to get her to fall asleep in a back carrier (ergo), and make sure she is getting enough sleep during the day. This is way more important than feeding her organic. That should be your priority. IMO healthy sleeps are more important than healthy eats.
