Thank you all.:)

Violet and JJsMom - it's nice to know I'm not the only one.

Grinity - You are always so sweet. I appreciate both the advice about what to look at and the hand of friendship. I looked at Dabrowski's Theory of Positive Disintigration and it definitely fits what I'm feeling.

MsFriz - That article looks awesome. I have only managed a couple of pages since I'm at work, but it makes a lot of sense.