For me the process started out with desperate fear that we wouldn't live up to our responsibilities - that we might fail our children despite all efforts. I have baggage - I lived the underachiever life - school went badly for me and the aftermath was worse. And I know others who had similar experiences. Of course we are aware, and vigilant, and prepared to do whatever we can to make sure this doesn't happen to our boys, so hopefully we'll be able to make things work better for them. But still - always fearful.
And grief too - when problems started to arise at school and it became apparent that really feeling part of a community, so important as Lori says, was going to be difficult for DS6. He's such a people person - he's struggled so much with not being able to really relate to his classmates. It's hard to know how to explain that to a little boy and awful to think that it might be necessary. I'm hoping we can find him a more appropriate setting rather than leave him to adjust to friendship circle that leaves him feeling isolated.
They're wonderful boys and the loves of my life. But I'll be happier when I feel a degree of certainty that things are working out well for them.
