Dear Jessg,
Don't feel dumb--it's sort of like sending a message in a bottle, but with a greater chance of a response!
I don't know you, and of course can't speak to your particular circumstances, but I hate to see anyone feeling so sad and frustrated, so here is some advice from a complete stranger (which of course you are perfectly free to set aside if it doesn't look good to you):
Do not end it all; if you continue to feel as though that is an option, get yourself to a counsellor, quick march.
Be kind to yourself; think of all the good things about yourself and how many people care about you.
Eat right; sleep well; get some exercise; do something nice for somebody else.
Forget about things from the past that are bothering you for now; promise yourself to look forward only for right now, and you can make a date with yourself to process the past later.
Remember that 23 is still so young; you have time to experiment and see what might work the best for you--you don't have to decide your whole future right now.
Remember that you're not alone; lots of people about your age feel about as confused and worried and lost as you do right now--but people get through it--and you can, too.
Go do something nice for yourself, right this minute!
peace
minnie
Last edited by minniemarx; 01/25/09 04:10 PM. Reason: infelicitous phraseology
