I earned the lowest highschool diploma without effort because I couldn't deal with the issues going on there.
And I feel like this is all an excuse. I wish I could give up and end it all, even though I never will thats how frustrated I am with everything.
I think you are facing the fallout from perfectionism - either self or outwardly imposed. I did (do) the same thing...trying to slip from one easy thing to the next....always ready to jump out before I might have to really give something my all and find out it might not be good enough.
While I didn't enjoy counseling - mostly because I could seriously not believe the lack of human caring that these people, who were supposed to help me, were providing - it did help. I was angry with them, and I decided that I must not be nuts, so I should go out and do something. (this sounds simple..it isn't) So, I started small. I made conversation with a stranger in the line for coffee - this was a big thing for me at the time - I was convinced I would sound like an idiot..turns out that wasn't the case, I and I became just a little bit more confident.
So, my advice - while useless unless you are also taking care of yourself to some extent, like everyone else said....is to:
1. Try something you don't already know you can do..and might fail/be rejected..etc (think things with an immediate feedback, like my coffee shop line..cuz if you have to wait, you won't get the same feeling - I read about it later in a psych journal).
2. Realize that you can succeed or Realize that you can fail and don't get immediately combust from mortification [this doesn't have to be public mortification..I failed a test once on a subject I didn't know (online) as part of my exploring experience..and I was so purple it wasn't funny.]
3. Repeat
4. Once you get more comfortable with yourself, you may find that the big things are easier to tackle because it doesn't matter as much.
[FWIW, my mom always tried to tell me to let my cares to God; I tried, but I didn't seem to let them go so well..I really needed to see that the world wouldn't end if I wasn't perfect.]
Wish you the best.
