What makes me feel good about myself is doing a job I like and excelling at it. But then I have to feel bad about myself because it makes everyone else uncomfortable. Maybe I am a man trapped in a women's body...ahhhhhhhhhhh...no.
So where Ren can a woman kick ass AND feel good? Anyone out there have that experience?
I have become resigned to the fact that I will only be happy owning my own business. I'm currently managing and writing for my websites. So, I'd say I can only kick ass and feel good by working from home, for myself. (Though, sometimes I wish I was doing research at a university somewhere. But I hear the politics suck pretty badly and there is a lot of pressure to do the right sort of research and get lots of grants and publish things all the time...)
I went back to college because I was tired of working low wage jobs (and I put college on hold after I worked for myself as a bookkeeper for awhile and noticed my climbing college debt.)
I strongly dislike working in jobs where they break down each step to every process to the point where a monkey could do it. I know that is probably just these corporate low wage jobs and I get why they do it, but it can bring a person to tears... of boredom.
I also HATE those false "worker morale" programs they set up. I do not want a gold star for customer service and I am your low paid wage slave you won't offer health insurance to, not a member of the "team."
Maybe I just have a bad attitude, though.

I have been "talked to" about this before.
I had a female manager at a popular coffee shop who hired almost all females to work there. I was kind of shy and didn't talk much and the other girls decided I was stuck up. The manager had a talk with me and told me she wanted us all the be friends at the job. Wth? I didn't get a job to make friends. I sometimes feel like I am from another planet.