@HowlerKarma : I am so happy to be able to enjoy myself again. I did not notice I was seriously depressed when I was posting here a few month ago.


@Mk13 : I see where your point is. Actually being gifted does not matter any more. What really does is making a move instead of whining. If I fail I could tell myself : "at least you I tried" I don't want a big career or something I just want to enjoy myself learning things I like.

"you can't repeat the past"