@dude : I never wanted to achieve something great, but some people wanted and still want me too. I am a very anxious person, I can't deal with pressure and I'm putting pressure on myself I end up behaving like Van Gogh ! I can be a little sensitive sometimes.
I understand. This is not something that is healthy. At some point you have to let go of other people's expectations, because it's not their life, it's yours. And then you have to decide... I have this life, now what do I want to do with it?
Mother told me the same thing about being a parent. I think my greatest journey is waited for me.
And just to be clear, the message I'm trying to send here is not, "go make a baby." It's just that "great" can be found in unexpected places, and you can define "great" to mean whatever it means to you. For some people it's the quest for fortune and/or fame. For others it's to be found in making little differences in people's lives every day, or learning something new. There are a number of possibilities, and you're free to choose, or make up your own.
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@HowlerKarma : Whatever I'm doing doubt is here, it's really disturbing. I mean music is my thing but most of the time I'm not satisfied with what I am doing or I think music is not meant for me, which could be true. Who knows ?...
This sounds like perfectionism, which is a very common trait among the gifted, and gifted females in particular. It's not a good thing in general, but it's particularly tough when your passion is music, because in music, there's no such thing as perfect. There will always be some who like it, and some who don't. You can't please everybody.
The best approach there is to make music to please yourself, and then if you enjoy it, share it with others who also enjoy it.
