@momosam : I am not sure I am familiar with the late-bloomer expression. Is it about evolving at your pace ? If it is I may be one.
Concerning my psychologist, I think like she wanted me to take a look at the life I am currently living and ask myself if it's how I want it to be.
Truth is I don't know. I'm living at Mother's and I don't have a job because of all the treatments I have to do this year. I, for sure, do not plan to stay at her's forever but she wanted to and I'm glad she did not to me when I said: "no" !
And even when I am done with my treatments, I'll be okay being a random human being. All I want is being better at making music and computer related things. I hope I would not regret this non-ambitious way of life I chose in 10 years.
@moomin : You just talked like a teacher I used to know, who was saying I was idle besides my good grades and that would never do something I'm proud of if I not doing it a 100%.
@dude : I never wanted to achieve something great, but some people wanted and still want me too. I am a very anxious person, I can't deal with pressure and I'm putting pressure on myself I end up behaving like Van Gogh ! I can be a little sensitive sometimes.
Mother told me the same thing about being a parent. I think my greatest journey is waited for me.
@deacongirl : thanks to the answers I had I understand that being gifted is who I am. But some people are mean about and sometimes make a fool of me because I don't know something they do. Maybe it's my fault, perhaps I did not behave well once so they remind me I'm not all-mighty. I don't know I'm going to think about it.
@aquinas : what is it with being a parent ? I mean where the kids are from should I order one on Amazon or something ?!
I already learn a few things from my mistakes, one is to carefully pick my friends. I don't know why I tend to believe that all the people are genuinely good. I am a real dummy in socialising.
@Edwin I wish I was 50 settled and all, so that the "what I'm going to do" questions were gone. But it's a silly statement isn't ? Life is an evolving path.
Also what you said made noticed that I kind of gave up.
@ColinsMum : I'm sorry for the "over-dramatic" feel. I did not mean to. It's just that understanding thing has always been the only thing I was really good at. So I felt a little left alone. Besides I googled Carol Dweck, and I'll borrow some books at the library.
@HowlerKarma : Whatever I'm doing doubt is here, it's really disturbing. I mean music is my thing but most of the time I'm not satisfied with what I am doing or I think music is not meant for me, which could be true. Who knows ?...
Thank you for all of your answers I'd like to be able to help someone as intelligently someday.
