I can't speak for the adults who were in your life during high school, but as someone who has walked alongside many young adults through dark moments something like yours, I can say that there are almost always more people in your life (in person and online) who are willing to help you, and even offering help, than it may feel like in the moment. If someone extends a hand, please take it.
Your value lies not in your intelligence or accomplishments, but in your unique humanity. There are beauties and joys that only you can contribute to the world, because they emerge from the singularity that is you. I encourage you to take the steps toward health and growth necessary to allow love and beauty to unfold over the course of your adult life.
