Just came in needing a think-fix, and so here's my story
I don't know. I was ID'd as gifted.
I DO know that DS's dad is a gifted parent. A PG one, to be precise. That DS's close relatives are... well... suffice it to say that their recent set of presents reveal a certain assumption that reading will happen imanently (DS is 1 3/4 years old). That's on both sides, even though I'm an only child and I did not read early -- and there's no communication between the two families. (I read late... but after a couple of months in remedial reading classes, was dismissed and given an adult-equivalent library card). DS was offered to play what I had assumed was an extreemely prized antique instrument at one relative's place, and I discovered (being shocked by the offer) that, oh, no, he BUILT the darned thing. Just felt like it, so he did.
I'm sure my mother and father were both gifted. My father was also LD, like me. So, I guess if I'm not smart, I'm the only one in living memory on either family tree.
DH thinks I am. And he's pretty smart, so he should know, right? Maybe. I really don't know. This moment, right now, I'm pretty convinced I'm not at all. But I certainly like to think. Is that related? Of course? Maybe? Nah, not at all?
I don't know if DS is gifted, either.
Maybe he's LD, though. We've even got a diagnosis. Uh. Kinda. At least he's already confusing diagnosticians, anyway.
I know I'm needing some help with this parenting thing that I ain't gettin' in the park down the street. I don't know if that's becasue of who I am or because of who DS is. I know the stuff said on here rings true, both about me, and about DS. I recently realized that it's a little odd that I remember trying to teach myself to read in secret becasue I though I'd get in trouble if my parents found out.
I know that I've got a lot of baggage I really really really need to work out NOT on DS. So if I'm not a gifted parent, I guess I'm a reasonable facsimilie thereof.
I know that I really, really, Really wish I knew more about myself and my history, and that I have no way to find out. I half want to go and get an IQ test done, just to see. Becuase I feel like I just don't understand myself well enough without knowing more about THIS.
And I know that I wish, intensely wish, that I didn't care. But I do care. It's very... strenuous.
-Mich.
