thanks lori and latexican
I will look up rational skepticism. we moved several times during my childhood. Math was a weakness. I have come to the conclusion that I just wasn't taught math properly. I had anxiety around it and I always thought the teacher was asking something of me that did not exist. Does that make sense? I don't think I knew how to do it at all. Then when changed schools, higher level and more issues. Then comprehension was a problem. Reading was a strength but the comprehension was killer. University was a problem. A professor told me he thought I had a learning disability because I wrote an essay like a 9th grade high school student. I went and got tested and apparently it was ADD, which was def. not true. I scored in the 98 percentile in the processing speed index but other areas low or average. How can someone test me in Math when I do not know how to do it. How can you test me on intelligence in comprehension when I do not know how to comprehend. This was not good for my self-esteem. I am learning things on my own now and I don't have any problem comprehending. I have figured out on my own how to understand. Delve into the history of it first find out why this thinking came about in the first place and then read what whoever had to say. That's how Ill get it. If you put something in front of me and say this is how it is, I will not understand. I need more. I also just read something about anxiety on this forum. It said, because of the perfectionism in us, we don't try because we are afraid of the failure. Something like that. That could explain things as well. I have very high expectations of myself.
