Have you talked to your parents about this? What about your school? Is there one teacher that you have that you feel really close to? Maybe you can talk to your brother?
I told my mother that I had difficulties in school, but she just said that I had to work harder. She actually said that she couldn't pursue a higher education, because she simply couldn't handle it. I think I'm quite alike my mother, it is just that she doesn't have the solution.
I'm not really close to my father, it's a more respect thing. I love him for the fact that he provides for me with all my needs, but I would never bother him with my mind stuffs.
About teachers... I once had a great teacher, but he's out of my life and I don't want to bother him... I started at a new school, and our 'high-school' is supposed to make you more independant, so I'm not exactly bonding as much with the teachers sadly.
My brother wouldn't understand... We have a more materialistic relationship. I just wouldn't want to be in that situation.
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Bottom line is that it sucks to see flaws and not be able to do anything about it. It sucks to ask for help, even though people encourage you to. It sucks to be unwanted, to be someone else just to be accepted. My problems which define me isn't wanted by anyone.
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Grinity, I see your point of view about Love... I understand it. Though, I would have never thought about it that way if you didn't tell me. Thank you!
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Thank you a thousand times!
Sincerely, Tommy H.
