My husband, son and I just got back from visiting my niece who just had a new baby girl and she is perfect, but it brought back memories. My sister, who videotaped my son's birth was there and we had a chance to talk about our memories of my son's birth. She remembered both a nurse and the doctor telling her to turn off her video camera because my son's heartbeat had slowed way down and my husband said it stopped right before the doctor told me we have to get the baby out NOW. But they couldn't get him out right away because they had trouble with the some of their equipment and the doctor ended up having to use forceps to get him out. I had my labor induced with pitocin and it seemed everything was going wrong toward the end. The cord was wrapped around his neck but I thought everything was finally okay when they got him out, but he was a floppy baby. For some reason the doctors he saw at the military base did not authorize OT or PT or anything even after we showed the doctor the results of testing showing he had a 50 percent delay in gross motor skills and his muscles were weak. He walked at 18 1/2 months, not very far, but he walked and it seemed like his doctors thought he was okay. Again I trusted the doctors. I can't help but wonder if my son's hypotonia and dyspraxia are my fault because I did not ask about possible side effects of having my labor induced and just went along with whatever the doctor said. I was one day past my due date and I totally trusted the doctor. I didn't ask questions and I never looked up any medical advice online. I do now, probably too much, but my sister is the same way after seeing what happened to our mother.

I think it will always be hard for me to trust doctors after some of the problems we have had and I am now wondering about the necessity of wearing a brace, even if they recommend it. My dad said he was told recently that he has scoliosis but it never bothered him, maybe because he didn't know he had it. My aunt has it too and it never bothered her and you can't tell by looking at her that she has it. And when I read that too many X-rays can be bad and they want to do all these X-rays to see if there is any change, I wonder if this could be doing him more harm than good.

I don't know why it is so hard to get our insurance to pay for PT or OT but it has always been a problem for us.

My son has had a few athletic high school age kids make fun of him and I don't think he would be willing to work with a kid.