Gifted Issues Discussion homepage Forums Identification, Testing & Assessment I really just need someone to listen

I'm still here, thank you all for responding.

After writing another detailed post addressing each and every comment/concern from everyone I decided to delete it. Let me just say that I identify with both columns of that table from the sengifted.org link. The reason medications do not work (with the exception of dextroamphetamine for mood) is because they do not address the underlying problem: how I'm wired.

I probably don't have to preach about existential depression, as I'm sure most of you are aware of it, or know a child that is going through it. Instead I want to ask a question: what if your gifted self, your gifted child, or someone gifted you knew actually went through with his/her humanitarian efforts and made a difference in this world? What if they weren't limited?

We all think about it, talk about it, fantasize about it but end up conforming to the wishes of the herd because we feel so small in a world so large and feel incapable of doing anything about it.

What if we didn't just survive? What if one of us didn't just get a job and deal with it? Or settle down? Or put up with the system and learn to tolerate it. We are living in 2016 and all things are possible, but they remain out of reach simply because of a lack of desire in the majority of the populace. I'm tired of letting the ignorant majority control the direction of humanity, through mindless, uncoordinated actions.

I think I'm going to give this a go. I need to be set free. It will be a long, hard road. I might die penniless, lonely, and without success, but these ~60 years I have left on this earth may just be enough.

Thanks for listening. You'll know it when you see it. Best of luck to your children.

- Jason