I think the perfectionism apple doesn't fall far from the parental perfectionism tree. wink We have to learn to let that go. I'm still working on it.

I sympathize with feeling like you can't do this for your 2nd child, too. We finally got to the point that things are really pretty easy with DS8. Homeschooling is clicking along well. He's got a part-time school-for-homeschoolers that suits him beautifully. He's happy, he's well-placed, he's got good friends he sees often. All is well...and along comes DS5, who was supposed to be my easy one! cry Making the decision about what to do with him next year is even harder than it was when we had our hardest year with DS8. I didn't think that was possible! crazy

The things I have going for me now are experience and confidence. I think you should take advantage of those, too. You know a lot. You've been in the trenches. Trust your gut.

Kriston