Sorry to hear that, I know it's tough. My son was not accepted when we first applied when he was 8. It took me 4 years to work up the nerve to try again. Back then I applied because I thought I was at a complete loss at what to do with him, but somehow things worked out even without the extra help I thought I needed. You will find a work to work through whatever issues you are dealing with. And you can always try again at some future date if it seems appropriate.