Oh no! I didn't mean it doesn't get easier, it absolutely does (for a while - lol). Reading was, and still is, a godsend and gifted friends who can keep up with them too! We are just in limbo right now and back in a rural area with no friends and now we have delightful hormones in the mix too. I am counting down the days, not to have her gone, but to see her in an environment where she is happy and engaged and it isn't at the expense of my sanity.