Hi, Howler smile

To the OP: Consider looking for a professional who offers therapeutic assessment to explore your underachievement. It's true that your responses are affected by your emotions and inhibitions, but if you let go of wanting to know your "real IQ" (there is no such thing... your IQ is not tattooed on your brain somewhere), the fact that *you* are part of your performance can actually provide a way to investigate *you*. And that's what you say you feel driven to do....

Sending encouragement smile