Well, since I'm not American I haven't taken the SAT. The closest I've gotten to a real IQ test are the tests you can find online. I took two Mensa ones from two different countries and got two different (but pretty similar) results (I'm not sure they're interesting to you), but I'm not sure how accurate they are. Personally I'm quite sceptical towards them. Got curious about the raventest one so I answered all the questions but couldn't see the report since you have to pay for it. Anyway, I guess IQ isn't everything.
"If you are gifted now, you were probably gifted as a child." Do you reckon it's possible to have been gifted as a child but then, years later, not be gifted anymore? I feel like my brain is "blocked" nowadays. Like when you have blocked ears but the brain instead. It's difficult to explain. I honestly wouldn't be surprised if I was gifted as a child but now I just feel like all my potential is buried under loads of crap so I can't really access it and channel it into something good. That's extremely frustrating. I know I should be able to do better.
It's so difficult to talk about this without sounding like the most arrogant person in the world (I really hope I don't come across that way). I'm just trying to understand why I've always been so different and why I've always felt so lonely and frustrated (even before my mental health issues started). It started when I was really young and that feeling has never left. Never. I can't explain how frustrating that is. Especially if you don't know why.
I am getting treatment for my mental health issues, yes. I'm currently in CBT, though it isn't going that well in my opinion.
It would be possible to take a break from university but that's not something I want to do. I'm not doing my PhD now by the way (getting a PhD is a dream I have though). Where I come from it's not unusual to take a few of years off between high school and university, which is what I did.
