Hello
First of all you are not alone. There are people that do understand and can help you.
I strongly recommend finding a therapist, if you have not already; and one that is knowledgeable and skilled - or at least willing to learning about working with Gifted clients. This person may not exist in the small town you live in, however. Counselor Lisa Erickson, MS, LMHC in Seattle perhaps may be able to put you in touch with someone in your area.
http://www.lisaerickson.net/ One of her area of specialities is Giftedness.
If you haven�t already read the books �The Drama of the Gifted Child� and �Gifted Adults� and check this link out too. This link may pertain to your having had a �nervous breakdown�
http://positivedisintegration.com/ I am a gifted adult in her 50s that just learned I was this way in January while in therapy. I am a natural in the arts, and have learned that gifted people are individually unique from not only among the majority of people but from each other. We can and do feel extra lonely now and then.
A kindred spirit
DebM
