Welcome! I'm also fairly new, and doubtful (re my own abilities), though I find it easier to believe my kids are gifted...
I think at this stage maybe be easy, and gentle, on yourself. It might help you to go for an evaluation, so that you have "proof" if you feel that would help quieten the doubts. It might also help you to talk through all of this with a counselor..? You have had a really rough time, and sometimes just talking it through with someone who knows how to listen can be a great help.
Hope you stick around and come tell us more about yourself.
Aufilia - I've had a hard time with all of that as well! I didn't realise it was an actual... well "thing" for lack of a better word.
