lechien - I don't even begin to have the kinds of life experiences that could allow me to say "I understand". It's stunning how sometimes giftedness can lead to such pain. But I can at least say, be welcome here, and I hope you can find some peace. Many people come here feeling scared, hurt and rejected, and find a place where we can be more honest, and be ourselves. I think most of us find some reassurance that we are not crazy and imagining the things we see. I have huge gratitude to all on the forum who have shared their experiences - although I am new here myself, I have already developed a better understanding of myself, as well as my children. My heart goes out to you.