Yeah, crying is a great release, go for it! Just wanted to send Hugs your way, sounds like you are doing a great job working through a painful process of finding out what is best for your child; when we found out that ds9 was depressed I was truly shocked, worried, saddened, blaming myself, etc. On the one hand depression is a pretty treatable illness with an outlook better than ever, and getting better as people understand more about it. On the other hand, no telling when it could return, how bad it can get, etc.
I understand that Dr. Amend is one of the best folks to work with in understanding what can help for some of our more unique kids ~ best of luck! I am sure having his info/him in your corner is going to help.