Other posters are being gentle with you, as I was in a previous post. I will do you a different kindness and be blunt.
Unless you have a time machine and can go back and re-live your life to this point, you are wasting your energy. Get on with it.
You are an adult. Your life is now your responsibility. If you spend your time complaining about others and shifting blame, you will soon look back with regret on your wasted life.
If you truly want any of the things you've listed as "goals", that's the only way to get them.
Good luck.
