Lori,
I'm so sorry to see the things you are going though. My heart goes out to you. Times are hard right now, but there is always a light at the end of the tunnel. It sounds like you are a very strong person, always remember, that you are a strong person.
The hard part of what you are going though, is to find the positive aspects in everyday life. When you are down it's difficult to see the small or any positives, but look close, they are there. Try to focus on any of the positives you have.
I also think a support group is a good idea. I wish I had joined a support group when my father was ill.
Wishing you the very best!!
