Hi Jake:

I realize you wrote this a while ago -- I read this a while ago. But now, I've just read a book by Sylvia Rimm that might give you some insight into your behaviors.
It is called
_why bright kids get bad grades_. It is written for parents and educators, but I think it might help you analyze some of your behaviors.

I think it's great you are recognizing a problem exists.

best,

bk

PS, I looked for Sylvia Rimm based on Trinity's suggestion. Thanks, it's really opened my eyes!