What I remember most ... is this sense that I was never "present". There was another old thread from recent months on this forum where someone mentioned they don't remember much, perhaps a lot of it was blocked.

I don't remember much either, but I remember often thinking that I did not exist and that I was not "here". I did have a very tough time at school... I could say I was mostly not "present' there either.

I sense of hiding of oneself because it was not acceptable to be you.

Thoughts?